on to bigger and better?

Well, we moved. on April 2nd. Our house is awesome! it was built in 1952 by the man who lived and died here. His name was Iseral Vale Adams, father of Gary Adams (found of Taylormade Golf supplies). Its so retro and has so many unique things in it.  This house is so huge compared to what we’re used to. Yes, its $275 more than what we’re used to as well, but Aarons raise helps.  I’ve started babysitting as well, 3 days a week, for Aaron’s cousin. He has a 2 month old son, named Malachi. It’s been pretty easy so far.

I also might have the chance to start teaching art lessons to one of my uncle’s co-workers children. I’m super excited about that! and I don’t even know if it would ever happen! I’m already working on finding plans to build a sketching horse (or two). I have a cousin who is also into drawing so maybe I can invite her over during the summer for some free lessons, maybe in exchange for some baked goods or something (considering her mom ((my aunt)) makes delicious things!)

I would love to get back to doing art, even if it is practicing with children once in a while. I can even give my own children lessons when they learn patience.

 

geesh

almost a month since i’ve made my last post.

life keeps getting more interesting and i’m finding it harder to keep my head on straight. to sum up the last week, before i go into any detail, : moving on april 1st, scarlett puked all over aaron, i and herself in meijer while grocery shopping. griffin has been inconsolable for the last 3 days.

our landlord is letting us out of our lease early, after finally confronting him about the foreclosure, which he says may not even happen if he is able to modify the loan, but there is a good chance he will foreclose. we need out of this house ASAP after an incident involving some very moldy smelling air after a heavy rain. can’t locate the mold, but thats not to say it isn’t hiding in the walls.  we have already found a new place to live and its awesome. (photos coming soon, once i get a chance to take some). its super retro and the landlord is amazing. i get to pick out the color of the new carpeting today

the last two exciting things i mentioned. speak for themselves. i need to take all of our wool coats to the dry cleaners because there are chunks of bologna and pink stains all over them. and mr. griff griff has been miserable for god knows what reason and i can’t get him to shut up  sometimes. its bad. on the other hand, we did go for a nice walk today, since it was beautiful outside. i can’t wait to live in a safer neighborhood with sidewalks and a better yard so we can spend some quality time outside and feel safe.

 

thank you 2011

i swear… when things get better, they better be REALLY good to make up for all of this bullshit.

 

Griffin(now almost 8 weeks old) is sick with RSV and was super close to being hospitalized. Poor little guy is having trouble eating and breathing still, but he is getting better with breathing treatments by nebulizer every 4 hours. Even better is that I have returned to work, but have only gotten in one 6 hour day because I am basically his sole caretaker right now, because we can not afford for Aaron to get sick and miss work. I, on the other hand, have already caught it… Adult RSV. Joy. My mom is being really nice and driving 8 hours from Minnesota for the weekend to help take care of us. I hope she doesn’t catch it too.

My short-term disability checks have STILL not arrived. I have been checking up by phone frequently, and every time I call I get a different answer and a different problem from a different person and I am pissed. Luckily, our tax refund has been deposited and now Aaron and I can work on filing bankruptcy.

Speaking of financial problems, another kick in the ass: our landlord failed to tell us that he is going into foreclosure on our rental house. JOY! I haven’t learned that we do have some rights as tenants and can not be evicted immediately. But the bad thing is that we have no idea how far this has gone already. We plan to call our landlord and probably leave a message because he NEVER answers, just to let him know that we found out, because I accidentally opened a piece of mail that didn’t have a name on it but was addressed to “unknown owner or claimant”

That is how things stand. We are all broke and sick and might be homeless (probably not, but just saying).

 

 

a lotta blah blah

So, I still haven’t returned to work.  I’m getting slightly frustrated. I also haven’t gotten any of my short term disability checks.

On the other hand, I’ve started to delve back into finding and listening to new music. It helps me get back in touch with myself. At least temporarily helps me feel somewhat whole.  I’ve downloaded a couple of albums I kinda like, including Belle and Sebastian- Write About Love, The Decemberists- The King is Dead, and a couple of new bands I’ve never heard of including Jukebox the Ghost- Everything Under the Sun. Here are a couple of links to my favorite songs off of these albums. (you will need quicktime)

“Empire” – Jukebox the Ghost

“January Hymn”- The Decemberists

 

I just made plans to meet with a close friend that I haven’t seen or even talked to in over a year. I can say that about a lot of my friends actually. It’s amazing how life can get away from you when you have kids. I feel friends are important and I haven’t mastered the art of balancing friends, family, work and me time yet. I don’t know if it will ever be possible but I’m sure going to try.

 

a friend with a fantastic eye.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/davidxglenn/sets/72157624352357696/with/5412732224/

Viewing his photos reminded me of when I used to take photos like his. The eye is always looking for beauty.

 

Not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

I cant wait until things start to get a little better. The only bills being paid are rent and 1 or 2 credit cards. I am suppose to go back to work on the 6th of February. I hope they can put me on the schedule.

Insurance companies really piss me off sometimes. My poor son is only a month old and has terrible reflux and they won’t refill his prescription until 2 days from now. The poor little guy is miserable and frankly so am I. I hate seeing him in pain.

 

not fair.

why are the cutest baby items always the most expensive?

 

it all feels downhill from here.

So, I’ve been curious as to where my short-term disability checks are, and I called my provider and they informed me my doctor never sent a letter that was requested a month ago. I called my doctor and they said the letter got lost under my other paperwork and that they are sorry it never got sent. Easy for them to say. It’s not possible for me to pay my bills with over 1 month without income. This year has been the worst financial year of my life. I have never had so many bills sent to collections and feeding my family has never been harder. My kitchen table has become a collecting place for a pile of things I want to see, just to be able to pay my bills. Aaron’s checks are already spent by the time we get it most of the time.  To be honest, we’re looking into filing for bankruptcy. I just have to get some things in order and I’m making an appointment for a consultation with a lawyer. Depressing… And most of mine and Aaron’s relationship has been spent trying to keep us out of this situation.